So last night I attended a fellow writer's book launch party. It was very exciting and well organized. I was tasked to be the time keeper so that the interview portion or Q & A portion didn't runneth over. I took this task very seriously and as I sat there with my little queue cards at the ready I was inspired and motivated to get the proposal portion and start querying for my own book. After the talk was done and raffle prizes distributed there was a champagne toast and cake. A perfect ending to a perfect event. As I stood around with a group of friends shoving cake down my gullet the discussion of my 21 Day Hacker classes came up. I had just finished a 21 Day Sugar Hacking class and we were discussing its benefits and what could be done for the next round. And as we were discussing this and me shoving cake I couldn't help myself but get a sinking feeling that I really shouldn't be eating this. I could feel myself shrinking more and more into myself yet still standing there licking the icing off the fork and making the necessary comments to make the hypocrite-like feeling less painful. But does this really make me a hypocrite? Yes and no. Although I don't consider myself a sugar addict, I do have blood sugar issues so technically, I should know better, right?
When at home and out in public for roughly 80% of the time I do forego the sugary treats and drinks. I say 80% of the time because let's face it, when you go out to eat you have no control over how the food is prepared. Yes, you could be the person who asks what each ingredient is and will wait for the waiter while he/she goes back to the chef to confirm thus forcing everyone else you are with to wait with you but that doesn't mean they are going to tell you every single ingredient that they use. But when meals are made at home you have that control, even right down to reading labels of items (which by the way is a whole other topic). When recipes call for sugar I modify to include more of the sweeter spices (cardamon, cinnamon, and clove, just to name a few) they do help and satiates that need for sweetness yet don't compromise taste and flavor for whatever I am consuming.
I do believe that we all on some level do sabotage our own successes, and some more than others, because we get wrapped up in societal celebratory activities. It's when we get out of control and don't catch ourselves when we are doing what we know better not to do that we run into trouble. Everything in moderation. That's my rule of thumb.
So after mediating this morning, I came to the realization that I need to get back to my daily practice of self care. I need to start being more dilligent on daily meditations and learn to stand my ground when it comes to being out in social situations and not just go along with what everyone else is doing. I've done this before and I know I can do it again. Won't you join me?